iCrucified

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted any of my thoughts…

I’ve been processing stuff internally for the past month; my soul has been tired…burdened. Subsequently, my thoughts have remained in the “neuron” or neural state as opposed to making it to electrons or paper for that matter (Translation: my writing has been sparse). Here is a compilation of passages and a devotional thought that continues to captivate my heart and my thoughts (here).

Today I spent some time in solitude to meditate over some of these passages; I also shared a lament with a group of brothers from various “colors of the cloth.” I think to some degree, I was unable to fairly communicate my burden (one of my frequent and many weaknesses). After sharing my burdened heart, we adjourned for a period of silence and meditation where my thoughts were drawn to questions regarding the “big picture.” What follows are some of my raw journal notes:

I often feel misunderstood, but I suppose that’s OK…in the big picture anyway. What does that mean: “Big Picture”? Really, What IS the big picture?

I think the big picture is Jesus Christ.

I think the ultimate expression of His glory is the Church, His Bride.

So…is it? Is the Church an expression of His glory? Are we sufficiently reflecting the glory of God to the world where we are considered instruments of redemption and restoration?

What can I do? I can say “yes;” yes to Jesus and His work through Holy Spirit in my life. I can be faithful to my call to be His servant to all people.

Thought: What exactly does Paul suggest in the Second Letter to Corinthians when he states “Anyone in Christ is a new creation”? He says we don’t’ regard people from a worldly view (what is that?). He instructs the believers telling them theirs is the ministry of reconciliation. He defines that to mean God is making His plea through transformed men for those still separated to be reconciled to God. (2 Corinthians 5:16-21) -Are we really doing this? Are we doing this as a church; redeeming creation and mankind…restoring that which is broken? Are we doing what God created and redeemed us to do through Christ? Is my conscience clear to say, “I have done all I could do as an instrument of grace and reconciliation for my God and my King..”?

Resolutions:

1. I love you Jesus; more than me

2. Whatever you want Jesus; “Yes”

3. Holy Spirit refill & reenergize me for Your service and Your glory